Fireworks

My internet life always gets more exciting when Alie shows up. Hooray for free wireless, Alie! I can't wait until UCB gets back on and starts making waves. What if The Black Rose were to show up too?

For the last couple months, I've been thinking about rejoining the "family" at Mayo's house. I've posted some comments on other people's blogs, sort of seeking advice on the matter. I miss people there. It's a lot harder to keep in touch with people without a centralized forum. As recently as last week, I was looking at comments on Mayo's, and I came very, very close to responding. I miss being part of the group, I really do.

Then I noticed Alie had commented at Mayo's, and within minutes, the anons started to tear her apart.

Ah, yes... now I remember why I left. People bash my friends at Mayo's. When I see my friends getting bashed, I feel compelled to step in and defend them. Then I get bashed too. Pretty soon, little snippets from my blog start to show up at Mayo's, reposted out of context by some anonymous, for what reason I could never guess.

This is why I should not go back. I can't participate in a conversation where me or my friends are being attacked without getting upset and feeling hurt or angry. So it's best if I just don't participate at all.

But I will say that reading the anonymous comments, when everyone thinks Alie is some sort of instigator, is extremely entertaining. I will definitely stop in once in a while to catch up on the latest.

Welcome back, Alie. I've missed you!

Uneasy

So my ex-boyfriend dropped off one of our cats tonight. I hadn't seen him in over a year, and it was weird and awkward. We had three cats when we lived together. When we split up, I took one, and he kept the other two. Now that he's getting married this fall, he doesn't want the other two anymore. I agreed to take one of them, in addition to the one I already had, and we still don't know what we're going to do with the third. So I've got this very sweet but very nervous cat right now, and I'm still a little disturbed by the fact that I had to see my ex tonight. It was actually a little revolting. Funny how feelings change over time. I used to be attracted to that guy? I mean, obviously, right? I lived with him for 2 years, and dated him for several years before we moved in together. But now I'm just angry that he's such a retard who caused me so many problems, and seeing him tonight kind of grossed me out. I haven't been able to relax since we made the cat hand-off, although that's partially because both cats have been hissing at each other all evening.

Every time I'm feeling lonely and wishing for companionship, all I have to do is think about my ex. Suddenly I become very content with my solitary life.

I just feel bad for the cats.

And the fact that I'm now one step closer to becoming a crazy old cat lady.