I had a little freak out this afternoon. I made the mistake of asking him again to go to the concert with me this week, and he flat out refused. It wasn't so much that he doesn't want to go, but the manner in which he said it. He basically told me he'll never ever go to a concert with me if it's music he doesn't like or isn't familiar with. I've never dated someone who wasn't willing to try new music! I've listened to absolutely every piece of rap and hip-hop he's thrown at me because I like to try new music, and I can appreciate it even if I don't necessarily like it. If he's not willing to do the same... man... I don't know. Music is a huge part of my life. The way he responded was personally offensive on so many levels. It's a much bigger red flag than any of the other stuff.
I'm not 100% sure how I'm going to do it, or to what extent, but I'm pretty sure I will be backing things off with the pharmacist. I was trying to decide if I should talk to him and let him part of the decision, or just do it and tell him how it is. My friend convinced me to talk to him about it, but I'd still rather bail on him without giving him a choice just because it's easier for me to protect myself that way.
Anyway, I don't expect to see him or talk to him until the end of the week, so I've got a few days to sort this out.
I'm gonna need a lot of chocolate and bacon! Maybe I'll go home and watch vampire movies tonight. :)
Aww, Andrea, it sounds like things are pretty rough with your love life right now. *hugz* I don't know what to say, because I can see both sides... it might be good to talk to him about the things that are bothering you, but I'm a long-time proponent of running away & protecting myself. :\
The only bit of advice I can offer is, if there are already red flags, your heart is holding back for a good reason. You need to take care of you first. If the pharmacist isn't giving you exactly what it is you need, then maybe it's a wise idea to keep looking.
You know where to find me if you need to vent. *nuzzle*
Interview with the Vampire is my favorite, but I'm open to other suggestions.
I think we need the variety tray of cupcakes... a little bit of each kind. I'm partial to yellow cake with chocolate frosting, myself. But I also love rainbow chip! Lemon is nice too. And then there's cheesecake cupcakes... and pudding cake... and...
Lol, Miss T. I know, I've been a soap opera lately. It all makes me feel a bit foolish. I just want to be happy without all the drama, but unfortunately I tend to freak out about shit like this. I wish I knew how to handle it better. I've gone over and over it in my head, and I've almost worked out what I'm going to say to the pharmacist when we talk (whenever that is - I still haven't scheduled time with him).
It sucks. I really do like him a lot. But I don't think he can give me what I need, and that probably means I can't give him what he needs either. :(
I haven't seen the original Lost Boys since the 80's. Maybe it's time for me to obtain a copy. It could be this year's select for Hallowe'en movie night.
I’m glad you like my new layout. The pink/black one was in anticipation and for celebration but didn’t turn out like I had hoped. So the more I looked at the pink/black scheme it pissed me off. And anyway, Halloween is my favorite holiday of the year.
I’m having one of those days at work. My desk is right next to the kitchen, and I think something died in the company refrigerator. It smells like ass or rotting foot - maybe a nasty combination of both. Either way, that fridge needs to be burned. The stink keeps wafting over to my desk and I just want to barf. The building is hermetically sealed, so I can’t open a window. Thank God it’s Friday!
This blog is my way of sorting out the thoughts in my own brain. Take it at face value, for there is no hidden meaning or agenda, only words of slightly confused honesty. WYSIWYG.
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Hey Andrea!
I haven't spoken to you in a while, and I just thought I'd pop in and say hello! How are you doing?
=]
Hi Paperheart! Always good to see you!
I'm having a rough day, but it'll work itself out. How are you doing?
Awwh. I hope things get better for you. =] I'm alright, doing research right now for two of my art assignments!
Did you know that vampires are my favorite creatures?
Yeah, they are.
No need to run. I'll hang with you being vampire-y with chocolate and bacon.
Hang in there. It does get better, you just don't always see the light at the end of the tunnel because you're facing the wrong way.
:)
Thanks Jenn, I appreciate it. :)
I had a little freak out this afternoon. I made the mistake of asking him again to go to the concert with me this week, and he flat out refused. It wasn't so much that he doesn't want to go, but the manner in which he said it. He basically told me he'll never ever go to a concert with me if it's music he doesn't like or isn't familiar with. I've never dated someone who wasn't willing to try new music! I've listened to absolutely every piece of rap and hip-hop he's thrown at me because I like to try new music, and I can appreciate it even if I don't necessarily like it. If he's not willing to do the same... man... I don't know. Music is a huge part of my life. The way he responded was personally offensive on so many levels. It's a much bigger red flag than any of the other stuff.
I'm not 100% sure how I'm going to do it, or to what extent, but I'm pretty sure I will be backing things off with the pharmacist. I was trying to decide if I should talk to him and let him part of the decision, or just do it and tell him how it is. My friend convinced me to talk to him about it, but I'd still rather bail on him without giving him a choice just because it's easier for me to protect myself that way.
Anyway, I don't expect to see him or talk to him until the end of the week, so I've got a few days to sort this out.
I'm gonna need a lot of chocolate and bacon! Maybe I'll go home and watch vampire movies tonight. :)
*squeeze*
You sound like you need cupcakes too.
I'm having a shitty week. Let's overindulge on gluten and sugar together, and be hot messes until the end of the month.
-A
Amy, that sounds amazing. I could eat a whole stack of cupcakes right now. You wanna watch a vampire movie with me?
Vamp movies are always good. ^_^
Aww, Andrea, it sounds like things are pretty rough with your love life right now. *hugz* I don't know what to say, because I can see both sides... it might be good to talk to him about the things that are bothering you, but I'm a long-time proponent of running away & protecting myself. :\
The only bit of advice I can offer is, if there are already red flags, your heart is holding back for a good reason. You need to take care of you first. If the pharmacist isn't giving you exactly what it is you need, then maybe it's a wise idea to keep looking.
You know where to find me if you need to vent. *nuzzle*
Hm. Which vampire movie?
And only if you won't laugh when I cover my eyes at the blood parts.
*shudders*
Chocolate cupcakes with that vanilla icing that has rainbow bits?
Or vanilla cupcakes with strawberry filling?
Or..
*stomach rumbles*
-A
Hiya Andrea sweetie, how are you? How's the love life this week?
xxxx
Interview with the Vampire is my favorite, but I'm open to other suggestions.
I think we need the variety tray of cupcakes... a little bit of each kind. I'm partial to yellow cake with chocolate frosting, myself. But I also love rainbow chip! Lemon is nice too. And then there's cheesecake cupcakes... and pudding cake... and...
Oh gosh... so hungry!
Hiya Andrea sweetie.
Blimey, your love life is better than TV.
I wish you good luck with your descision.
xxxx
Have a great week sweetie.
I just realized how quickly "cupcakes" could devolve into "jello shots".
[wicked grin]
They're both sweet, they both come in little cup-sized portions, and they both make me feel better when I'm down!
Lol, Miss T. I know, I've been a soap opera lately. It all makes me feel a bit foolish. I just want to be happy without all the drama, but unfortunately I tend to freak out about shit like this. I wish I knew how to handle it better. I've gone over and over it in my head, and I've almost worked out what I'm going to say to the pharmacist when we talk (whenever that is - I still haven't scheduled time with him).
It sucks. I really do like him a lot. But I don't think he can give me what I need, and that probably means I can't give him what he needs either. :(
Did I hear Jello Shots?
-A
*nod*
You sure did.
What flavor would you like? :)
Cupcakes and jello shots?
Mmmm.
My kinda place to hang out.
I just saw "Lost Boys II"
It was not horrible, but not great either. A bit campy, but I like that sort of thing.
I haven't seen the original Lost Boys since the 80's. Maybe it's time for me to obtain a copy. It could be this year's select for Hallowe'en movie night.
uh... that was meant to be *selection*.
Weezer concert tonight!
Woot woot!
I’m glad you like my new layout. The pink/black one was in anticipation and for celebration but didn’t turn out like I had hoped. So the more I looked at the pink/black scheme it pissed me off. And anyway, Halloween is my favorite holiday of the year.
I’m having one of those days at work. My desk is right next to the kitchen, and I think something died in the company refrigerator. It smells like ass or rotting foot - maybe a nasty combination of both. Either way, that fridge needs to be burned. The stink keeps wafting over to my desk and I just want to barf. The building is hermetically sealed, so I can’t open a window. Thank God it’s Friday!
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