All of this blog nonsense was really the last thing I needed. It couldn't have come at a worse time.
My sister is in a foster home. My mom is having weird and scary health issues. I'm having some health issues of my own. My job is miserable right now. I'm having confused feelings about a friend. And I'm going through a little bout of depression which makes it all the more difficult to deal with everything.
And now I feel like I can't write what's in my heart because so many people are overanalyzing everything I say. Why can't I write about what's happening in my life without you thinking there's something more significant than what's on the surface?
It's bad enough that El Casa de Mayo will now be foreign ground to me, but I also feel as if I've lost my own blog somehow. I don't know what to do now. I needed this place. It was my refuge and my place of solace.
I'm sure it will be once again, after I've regained my confidence. But for now... I've gotta look both ways before crossing the street to make sure I don't get hit by another bus. It seems like they just keep coming.
When will it stop?
And what will be left of me when it finally does?
...
Donnie: Frank, when's this gonna stop?
Frank: You should already know that.
28 days, 6 hours, 42 minutes, and 12 seconds...
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24 comments:
Oh andrea I'm so sorry. I think people do tend to forget everyone has issues in real life which are important enough not to be complicated by a war of words on a blog.
Maybe you could make a non viewable blog? But it is a shame you would feel the need to have to. People should think before they make big assumptions and if you read stuff with a preconcieved mind set anything can be made to fit the way you want it to.
Maybe make it private for now,and you can change it later.
I hope your real life sorts out, in family and work. I can't really help but you can email me anytime if you like.
Andrea, I am so sorry. I hope everything will sort itself out in the end. I agree with Ergo. I think it is best if you make your blog private for now. If you decide to, you may have to change your url address as well. Lurkers can still access your blog if you don't change it, but still, I'm sorry for what you are going through. If you ever want to talk, I will leave my email here:
returntomesalvation@yahoo.com
Please feel free to email me anytime, k? Take care.
BC/Avenger
Oh, BC! Sorry, I didn't recognize you!
Thanks Ergo and BC for your support. I appreciate it so much.
I'm still trying to decide what to do about my blog. I hate the idea of making it private, but that might be the best way to go.
This all sucks.
Andrea, your welcome. In order for the lurkers to stop posting your blogs and comments over there, I suggest you make it private. But for your sake, and your friends, I think you should. All of this definitely sucks.
or have one private and one for mucking about with nonsense.
Donnie Darko; good movie.
I hope things sort themselves out. I'm sorry to hear about your sister and your mom.
*hug*
Thank you Paperheart and SisMid. (Can I call you SisMid? Lol.)
I haven't been to Mayo's since this morning, but people are telling me there's more drama over there. Now it's starting to get hilarious!
So some people with too much free time on their hands went and tracked down myspace and mindsay accounts with display names similar to those of my friends here on blogger?
Honestly, when will you people get bored and move on to the next conspiracy?
I used to be offended, but now I'm just laughing my ass off. It has become so rediculous that it's funny.
You guys should get a hobby or something. Seriously.
Andrea, I am staying out of the drama. That's for sure.
I don't blame you BC!
Andrea, I'm so sorry you have lost your escape place. Life can be such an ass kicking us when we are already down. I hope things start looking up again soon for you.
PP
xoxox
Good afternoon/evening Andrea. How are you doing today?
PP, thanks for your nice comment.
I'm doing good BC, how are you today?
morning andrea.
How are you today?
Hows things at home?and I suppose you are back at your job today. Hope it picks up and is more pleasant for you soon
Andrea, sorry it took me a while to respond. I am doing okay. I hope you are too. We're supposed to have a big storm, so I may not be here later on. I hope everything works out. Take care.
Anonymous said...
When will you learn, Miss Fisher?
Once again your obsessive behavior has resulted in people wanting you to back off and leave them the fuck alone. Only this time it's a group of bloggers asking you to stay away, not band management telling you to stay away.
MCR don't want fans like you.
January 7, 2008 1:38 PM
posted @ a lie's.
Hi Ergo, hi BC. How are you both doing?
Yes, I am back at work today. It's been kind of useless day as far as productivity. I spent all afternoon trying to set up my new computer. It's going to take forever to copy my files from the old machine to the new one.
Anonymous, who are you and where are you getting this information? I highly doubt you know anything about Alie at all - unless you can prove to me otherwise. You're welcome to send me email in private if you'd prefer not to broadcast your identity in public. I really would like to know. But if you have no proof of what you are saying, then please don't bring it here again. You can ask me questions, and we can talk, but I don't need these dramatic posts with all the conspiracy nonsense. I left Mayo's house to get away from that.
Andrea, I'm doing okay, thanks. How are you holding up during this big mess?
Hey andrea you know I heard on the news this morning Nicole and Keith have announced she's expecting!
(hope it's not Johnny's)
Might have to send Kylie Minogue in her place
Nicole! I finally found you! Congrats on your baby! I'm so happy for you! (if it is Johnny's I won't tell anyone)
BC! Do you have an aim?
Hello my friends! How is everyone doing?
I posted a new blog. ^_~
Alie, yes I do. Hi Andrea.
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